Recent content by ChapelHillSooner

Wow. I am excited.

I am hungry. I don’t want to wait two weeks for tacos.

I don’t want to give anything away either but I have to say that was the most depressing episode of TV I have ever seen. I really didn’t need that at this moment but it was very well done.

I agree with super about how when one is depressed, they aren’t really in a mental state to improve. They have no energy. Nothing seems enjoyable. When I was depressed about 20 years ago, I tried to do things that would help and when it didn’t I felt worse. It is a vicious cycle.

This week this post really resonated with me. I understood everything because I have been there before but now I really feel it. I can’t sleep. I can barely eat. For days I had maybe an orange and a banana. I am getting more now and probably getting sufficient food. I have concentrated on...

So one more update. She said I was using her past against her. I couldn’t figure out what she was talking about. Well later she wrote about how I had looked up yearbooks of her - some before I knew her at different towns, some while we were in school together, some at another school in...

I hate it that we know about her problems because she happened to fall into a well 40 years ago. Kind of unfair to her.

Nothing good. Most is incomprehensible. As I said she had a very rough family life. Single mother who was an alcoholic and drug user. Would take off for weeks with her having to figure out how to care for her brothers. Finally the mom took off with her two younger brothers when she was 15...

I woke up. I went to the gym after dropping my son off. (Usually he gets picked up by a van sort of like what insensitive people call the small bus but he threw up so I had to change him and take him.). Pyramid on the squats but hit 325 four times with depth (most I have done) and each other...

So after having not eaten since Friday night and very little sleep, I got some Xanax. (No judging. The last time I took one was at my mom’s funeral in 2009.) Throw in some melatonin and I am ready: good night all:

Thank you, man. But for tonight and tonight only I am going full Leaving Las Vegas.

My sister drank herself to death. I honestly think she had the right idea.

This is all why I shut down emotionally three decades ago. This woman (girl at that time) has a way to open my heart up then break it. Always been a long distance relationship which is the reason it ended years ago. I fucked up and didn’t date her when it wasn’t - all because I thought she...

Is it okay if I turn to alcohol tonight? I am on beer 2 at the taproom in southern village. I am doing at least two more.

To reach that point there needs to be a lot of suffering first. If 40% of the country is still MAGA, everything will be seen as political.