Maybe I’m a little slow or maybe you need to be an evil, greedy asshole to really get it.
You might be slow on the uptake, but not because you’re slow.
I suspect you orient in a pro-social, humanistic manner. You think it’s inherent to humanity to seek cooperation and to build systems of support that ensure the well being, autonomy, and survival of all peoples thrust into this world against their will. It’s seems anathema to pursue policies and systems that create chaos and destruction of human potential.
I suspect you find yourself baffled that humans haven’t integrated all the
obvious lessons from historical spasms like Genghis Khan, bubonic plague, the inquisition, genocide of the native Americans, 1918 Spanish Flu (didn’t start in Spain), 1933/1938, the Rape of Nanking, Covid, etc. In that bafflement, you can’t help but give benefit of doubt, after doubt, after doubt … bc you seek understanding and knowledge. Bc you see people as generally seeking well being, and if something is so irrational to your understanding of well being, you assume you must be missing something - anything - even a
shred of new information that could explain the rationality behind what appears to you as objectively irrational and antisocial.
You can’t integrate the reality that an astonishing percentage of humanity has deep desire to inflict cruelty and regression, merely to hoard resources, protect internalized tribal identity, and shield fragile egos. You give a shit about people, writ large, and their ability to live with less suffering, vs some concocted survival of the fittest and tribal warfare trope.
Or, I could be way off base and just projecting.