Right! Like, it’s no secret! And it’s totally fine- just own it, is all I’m saying. Own that you like policies that are the complete antithesis of every conservative value and principle you’ve claimed to had, and just own that getting to deport illegal immigrants, getting to end DEI initiatives, and getting to prevent transgender people from existing, is well worth it to you even though the side effect is that it also comes with a federal agency having wanton immunity to extrajudicially execute American citizens.
This isn’t hard, calla! Just say that you are fine with the juice and that it is worth the squeeze. I would disagree like hell with you, and I would find it reprehensible, but I would at least be able to respect the honesty. There is no honor in hypocrisy and cowardice.