I’m getting closer than ever to this kind of apathy, based less on results and far more on the transactional state of college hoops in general. It’s all like a glorified pickup game now, where sure, you still want to win and hate to lose… but there’s far less of a bond to the team and the new faces just rotate in and out so fast. That makes it nearly impossible to invest the same kind of energy as before, and it even makes the highs feel less high, though the lows are less low which I guess is a silver lining.
That’s a big part of why I support Hubert despite some deficiencies. He hasn’t shown to be a consistently great coach nor a consistently bad coach, but he’s shown plenty of stretches of both. But not only am I not convinced anyone could do much better under the circumstances, but even if there were someone, it would likely only drive my apathy further. First of all, there’s nobody in the “family tree” who fits the bill and would necessarily be an improvement in any way, and it’s very possible things would get worse.
But more importantly, if they went away from the network of alums and brought in whoever else, I really just wouldn’t care as much. Maybe that would change with some encouraging seasons under his belt… but with no real connection to Dean or Roy, there would be a slight chance and small window for me to ever give much of a crap again. I didn’t go to UNC and don’t at all invest emotionally in the other sports, other than generally rooting for them and for the university in all things. My long and intense fandom comes from my deep appreciation for Dean, and later Roy, and how they lived and led. This is why I don’t really give a shit about a losing season or not making the tourney or not living up to old obsolete standards of glory days that’ll never return, at least not in the same ways. I’m realistic about the modern college hoops landscape, and for me, if Hubert is unable to bridge that old school with the new school, then that would be unfortunate, but it would be fine. Because it was done in a way Dean and Roy can be proud of, and in a way that comes directly from them.
And if he is unable to bridge it, then that’s likely the nail in the coffin for me as the type of deeply involved and engaged fanatic that I’ve been all these years. Which would be a bummer, but also ultimately fine. I’ll still enjoy and somewhat follow college hoops and the Heels I’m sure, but it’ll be hollow and no longer a part of me the way it was before.
That said, this thing ain’t over. And I won’t be looking at the records or stats or NIL coffers or portal wins or losses to determine my fandom. I’ll be looking at the guys who lace them up next season, and the guy holding the clipboard. And whether those guys show the kind of fight and fire and energy and growth and INTEGRITY — all of which are the things I signed on for as a kid, decades ago.