Appreciate the response and the back-and-forth on this. Also appreciate the questions- they're totally fair.
I wouldn't say that I feel that I've had any major "political conversion." I've absolutely moved leftward on several policy issues, but my moving leftward simply took me out of "hard core conservatism"- I was previously anti-gay marriage, anti-abortion, and anti-immigration as my primary political positions- into something that is a lot more centrist, but would still be considered solidly conservative in every other part of the globe. If the political ideology scale is 0-100 with 0 being extreme far left and 100 being extreme far right, I'd reckon I went from somewhere in the 70-80 range in high school and college, to probably the 45-55 range these days. I wouldn't have any problem whatsoever labeling myself a liberal if I thought that I was liberal. I don't see 'liberal' or 'conservative' as pejoratives and don't think less of anyone for being one or the other. For example, the vast majority of what John Fetterman says and a lot of the stances that he takes resonate with me.
As far as why I turned against Trump, I'd say it was a combination of things. I was initially offput by his comments in the aftermath of the tragedy in Charlottesville in 2017. The in 2018, I was even more offput by his comments disparaging American intelligence personnel and military members at the 2018 United States-Russia Summit in Helsinki. I still voted mostly Republican in the 2018 midterms. The last straws for me were in 2020: first with his behavior in the early onset of the COVID-19 pandemic in January, February, March, and April 2020. I thought that his words and his actions were completely beneath a POTUS and that he was sorely lacking the kind of leadership ability that is required of any POTUS in any national and global emergency. Second, his conduct in the aftermath of the George Floyd murder in June 2020 was reprehensible, specifically in using military personnel to physically assault and clear a crowd of protestors with rubber bullets and batons so that he could stage a photo op with an (upside down" Bible in front of St. John's Church. I was already leaning heavily into not supporting his reelection in November of that year, but that day in June sealed the deal for me. It was an unforgivable line to cross.
So, all of that to say, it wasn't some sudden and immediate light that came on for me where one day I was pro-Trump and the next I was anti-Trump. It was a slow, methodical move over the course of his first term, which then rapidly accelerated in 2020. If he had risen to the occasion and proven himself to be a presidential leader during the pandemic and during the race riots during the summer of 2020, I could have likely been convinced to hold my nose and vote for a second term. I'm not sure how long you've been around tis ZZLP community, but if you were around in, say, 2015-2018 or so, you'd have seen that I was actually one of the folks on here who would, if not outright defend Trump, would hand-wave or try to explain away his words and actions. I got taken behind the woodshed on plenty of occasions by plenty of longtime posters here with whom I now find myself aligned.
I'm sure that there are plenty of Republicans who, as you said (and perhaps you are even one of them), "hate Trump, with a passion, but still held their nose and voted for him last November." I definitely don't think that 77 million voters absolutely loved Donald Trump. But the difference between myself- as a former Republican- and those current Republicans, is that for me, I care much more about the overall prosperity and well-being of our country than I care about having to hold my nose and vote for "my party." I'm not nearly partisan enough to care about which party holds power as long as the power is being used to genuinely make America stronger, safer, and more prosperous for all Americans. I personally do not believe that Donald Trump and the current GOP are doing those things- I also understand that you probably very strongly disagree with me on that.